Good girl
i've been a good girl these few days. went straight home after school and stayed home.maybe its cos i'm sick of going out, and especially to town. there may be loads of other things to do, but my frens all seem busier than me. so i'm now learning how to cook from my mum!! its fun! learnt a few dishes already. am thinking of doing them myself. which means without mum's supervision, cos she will never let me do it alone. she thinks i'll burn down her whole kitchen....so i'll have to cook when she's not home...kekeke....hmmm....but who can i get to do the tasting?after a few days of cooking, i realise that its true when my mum says she never like the taste of the food that she cooked, even though all of us think the food tastes superb. cos when i cooked, i keep finding fault with the food. like there's something missing, it's always not up to standard. though honestly, i'm not sure what the standard is....haha....i guess it happens to most cooks bah...
mooncake festival
this year's mooncake festival was rather special. didn't spend it alone, neither did i spend it at a relative's place. was out with a friend and had loads of weird food.
was walking around town (have been headin down to town for the past week nearly everyday!!! so sick and tired already) and finally settled at suntec for dinner. really couldn't decide what to eat for dinner cos nothing really attracts when one have been in town for more than 5 days minimum. so we went to carrefour and just bought whatever we could get hold of and made our own menu...well sort of.
so we bought one drum stick, thought that a whole chicken was a bit too much for 2.
then 5 pieces of sushi.
then there was fish!! deep fried fish! its a whole fish, not fish fillet or anything else. whole fish complete with the head and tail. haha....it was even 1 for 1. so we had 2 fishes for 2 bucks!!! incredible.
of course there was mooncake. manage to get a pandan flavoured 2 yolk mooncake for 5 plus bucks.
then we each got a bottle of green tea.
erm...that was about it. but we spent alot of time getting these things, though sounds very little.
and for 13 bucks only!! hahahaha....it was fun (^_^)
then there came the problem of looking for place to settle down.
it was 10 plus on a sunday night, most places close already. so we went to the fountain of wealth upstairs. there were...well...a lot of couples...haha...but we manage to find a spot away from them.
all was fine....all except that the moon was out of view!!!!! arrgghhhh!!!!! hahaha...
oh well...the food wasn't too bad except for the sucky fish...lol....
never buy this fish from carrefour. bad...so bad...
this is what we bought. there are 2 pieces of the fish. but only one is shown here. mini feast...
tanjong beach
1st time to tanjong beach
1st time to km8
1st time travelling alone all the way down to sentosa
been doing loads of things alone these days...i'm not sure why.
is it because i need time alone? or is it because i just dun have as many friends as i think i did.
but time spent alone wasn't all that fruitful. i just think alot, of the same things.
and that's not a very good thing.
am i turning into a loner? i dunno. i might?
it's not all that bad i guess. call that independence?
one day when all shall leave and turn to dust, it'll be too late to learn to live alone.
so yest's beach outing was fun. been a long time since i bask in the sun. after all that grumbling, i've finally gotten down to doing it. the sun was scorching. and it was the afternoon sun. i'm so burnt. so so so painfully burnt.
and i realise that tanjong beach (dunno bout the rest, but this at least) is not a place for those with inferiority complex. cos it just hurts the ego big time! the men there. wooooaaahhhhh...
bulging biceps, 8 pacs, broad shoulders....the hint of a tummy is not allowed....stressful...
but, men weren't the eye candy. the dogs were!!!! there were soooo many dogs running around the beach yest. soooooooo cute!!!! men i wish they were mine.
okie, pictures
on the bus on the way to town, it's so freaking hot!
they were using suntan lotion while i use sun block. i drink grapefruit juice in the day, no liqour
us!! and that guy in the back ground. super CMI !!!! muahahah....
qin and yunjie. oh and that guy in the back ground is a bone crusher. we counted, he had 8 pacs
a view of tanjong beach
i watched a movie alone
it was a monday evening. first day of school.was suppose to watch a movie with a friend but something came up and i was alone.well i had already planned to watch it alone, just that i saw my friend at school and she agreed to watch with me...but at the end of the day, back to square one.so i was hesitating whether i should catch the movie alone or not, cos its kinda scary, and it was my first time. so happen, that night mum didn't cook, plus i was alone...and i really wanted to watch the movie. so, i just went ahead.it was a stormy night (not pretending to be melodrama), it started to pour just as i reach cine.so i bought myself subway sandwich for dinner, went up to level 4 to buy the tix. it was all monotonous and rather fast. i realise that when one is doing things alone, time seem to b on a standstill and after doing what had to be done, there's still plenty of time left.so i had to wait for roughly 20 min before the show starts. luckily i had a book with me. i sat outside the theatre and tried to read while waiting for 6.55 pm. but i couldn't concentrate on the book. i just felt uncomfortable and really, rather sad. not self pity or anything, i just sat there with a heavy heart.then after i've finally settled down in the cinema, hoping to watch some trailers, there was just a blank screen with boring music. i gathered that when there's not much of an audience, there's no trailers. which only adds on to my yucky feeling. but i wasn't the only one watching the movie alone. there were lik 3-4 others who were sitting alone. so much for a lonesome night.the movie was good. watched as it is in heaven. and it was about 2 hours plus. but after the show ended and i walked out of the theatre alone, that's when i felt really really alone. the feeling was so bad. i didn't know what to do. i was draggin my feet along orchard road which was gloomy and rather bare. it was just bad.i felt like crying but there were no tears. i tried to do some self reflection but all i could think of was how lonely and cold i was.i dunno whether that would be the last time i watch a movie alone. maybe to the rest who've done this before didn' t think it was all that bad. but, this is really quite an experience for me.for a very long time i've always wondered what it's like watching a movie alone. now i know it's not the watching alone that's scary. it was the part where one have to walk in and out of the theatre alone that's frightening.
my last day at NTUC!!!!!
came to office 15 min late....AGAIN...my manager didn't even bother to say anything....muahaha...bought custard puffs to treat all my colleagues yest, tot i could have one this morn for breakfast, but it was all wiped out....boohoohoo....but its ok la cos there's more moon cakes!!!!!! from ritz carlton, crown prince, goodwood park raffles hotel blah blah blah...you name it...i cannot tahan my hunger, so those mooncakes were my breakfast! afterall it is for all colleagues to eat what.and it was so sinfully delicious!!!!! took the one with the most yolk...hee...most would already know that i'm the crazy one who wans 4 yolks in her moon cake (^_^) oh and the ritz carlton one was the best!!! small, unique and i like the packaging! instead of the big bulky box its a long rectuangular box. very classy, very nice =)last day liao, but today still have to stay until 6 for some scholarships and education grant award ceremony. so boring!!!!!! but they are paying me 9 bucks an hr to do registration...ok la...since they need me sooooooooo much.....teeheehee...shall do them this service =Pnow i'll be sitting at this desk for the last time...my own com, a desk that stretches abt 1 meter long, own phone system...beautiful view...apparently we have the million dollar view cos from our office we have no high rise buildings blocking us, we can see the esplanade, the fullerton, clifford pier all in clear view...sigh....suddenly i miss all these...i think i'll be missing this life...not the nagging customers of course...but this is one of the most relaxing and welfare job i've done so far. honestly, despite all the grievances i may have...this is the best compared to HSBC, Singtel, LTA, hotel rendevous...wow...however i dun think i ever wanna do another call centre job...after singtel and after this ntuc call centre...nah....sick and tired liao....this time around i wanna try hotel front desk or sir stewardess...muahaha...lofty ambitions...time now... 11.30 am....another 1 and half hour...weather's very nice, bright and sunny, so its not so cold, can tahan with just a shawl...on other days it'll be my bro's oversized qiucksliver jacket that comes all the way down to my knees. yeap, that's how cold the office is and how relaxed an environment it is...let's see, next mon morn esap lesson. have to wake up earlier than usual cos lessons start at 9 jus like work but this time around it's at clementi and not shenton way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<just thurs i went to sch to pay sch fees, and school felt so detached, so weird...something's just not right...that's when i realise that shenton way has become my 2nd home as compared to school!!!!! gosh....this is weird....but i'm still anticipating school re-open, and the feeling of eating in school canteen...hahaha...this time around some of the pple in the gang that i hang out with wont be studying anymore...i'll miss them big time though time spent with them is short. there was quality fun and laughter...sobs...wonder what awaits this new term. my last school term for this life time bah...who will i meet? who will i leave...who will i disappint, who will disappoint me?? not looking at the bright side yet ... i think it'd be redundant...
yeah! headed down to jb again yest with the fellas!! this is my 2nd time going jb with them, and we went to holiday inn to buy dvd which is pretty cheap but i only bought 2 discs. good will hunting and closer.
now i'm regretting not buying more...but its ok, jb's not going to see the last of us yet (^_^)
then we went to city square to shop shop...didn't manage to buy anything but get to eat yami yoghurt!! and its cheap!! hee...
and i dun understand why they make us pay for using the toilets when 20 cents rm and they dun provide toilet paper!! only at 50 cents rm then we get decent looking toilets and toilet paper...tsk tsk tsk...yeap we bitch about everything n anything possible...hee...
dinner was at terbau (da ma) this time around and it was super duper sinfully delicious!!! butter crayfish, mouth watering!!! so much better than at eden...no pictures though, too hungry and by the time i wanna take any pictures the foods all gone anyway.
and phillip came with this super poseur yellow plastic dutch looking shoe/sandals...and a feverish craze for anything yellow. bright bright yellow!!! what's up man! but it's hilarious....whahaha....
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yeap that's yest. a-war-ed and my colleagues all thought i'm not coming back for gd...haha...today's a friday, gotta work till 6...tmr another day official off at 1 but gotta do overtime for some function till 6 as well...so tiring...but, after that it's back to school!!!!!!! wheee!!!!!these few days gotta do outbound calls to members reagrding transport vouchers which is a great effort to help those needy members...but...i realise there's a a flaw. see those who are union mbrs need to pay $8 a mth and they have to be working, doesn't seem alot, but it's still about $109 a mth, and can b put to better use. and the criteria is that one cannot earn more than $1500 a mth or the per capita income cannot be more than $450 in order to get the $50 transport voucher. and there's like so many of them earning on ave $3-6 k a mth!!! now who's complaining they are poor?!?!?!?!!? there are of course those who earn less than 1k a mth and have 4 kids at home...but, these are only 1/10 of the whole mbr base?? then there's some assholes who say things like "of course i earn more than 1.5k la, if not how to survive??"wah lau!!!!!!!!! ought to be shot lor!! so brainless, so sheltered and so self centred!!!!!!what for waste time, money and resources calling these assholes??!?!?!?!and recently there's some pap carnival at expo which is total crap!!!!! pay $3 to go expo just to see some 3D world map on wonders of the world and it's not even all 7 of them!!!!! who'd be so free??? i feel like an idiot telling them. how to sell to pple when i'm not convinced myself that it's worth the money and time!?!?!?! somemore have to keep repeating the same thing over and over again to 100 over pple in a day...kau!!!!!!! damn tiring lor....sigh..... school...i miss school....
VICTORY!!!! SWEET SWEET VICTORY!!!!!!NO MORE MR NICE GUY. NO MORE COMPROMISE. NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE. FOR THOSE WHO ARE UNAPPRECIATIVE, FOR THOSE WHO TOOK ME FOR GRANTED,GO AND DIE!!!!
me and my not so perfect family
previous day i went out shopping with bro, he wanns shop for clothes! bags! wallets! belts!!
finally i hear my bro wanting to shop for proper stuff other than computers, x-boxes, games....boring!!!!!
but as usaul we headed down to the comex fair first for a ritual chk on what's on the mkt. nothing much. bumped into chun, michael, edmund (sorry dude, cant really recognise u...hee), went to look for ah liang who's working there n earning $5 commission for every mp3 sold!!!! that's like gd money! i'm still stuck in the office =(
so anway , by the time we make our way into suntec, it's quite late. saw a few shirts, pretty not bad. but no time to look at bags...instead i bought a pair of jeans...muahahaha...
supposed to buy bro a present...but wanna make it something worthwhile n special so yea shall not rush into it.
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yest bought dinner home after work, dad's in hk.
chit chatted with mum a bit, which was gd, cos she's always complaining i dun talk to her enough...she just have this idea that daughters ought to be closer to mummys...which i dun disagree, but it's just that there are certain things i rather not confide in her...or, the timing's just not right la....
so anywa, mum actually encouraged me to go watch quidam!!!
mum: "do you know there's this circus thing going on?"me: "yea, of course"mum: "so u going to watch??"me: "i would want to, but too ex already"mum: "watch la! go watch!"me: "do you know that its easily 100 plus!!" (eyes wide)mum: "watch la! go wactch!! daddy say this kind of thing sure expensive one. cos seldom come spore mah. watch!! go watch!!"me: "yea, they seldom come. but no la too ex"mum: "watch!! go watch!! go with kor kor lor"and so i gathered that maybe i should bring my parents go watch quidam. afterall they are really good, i watched the millenium special and i was wowed...shall make me bro pay for mum and dad's tix...and i shall pay for my own lor...muahahaha...i'm an evil little sister (^_^)
my 1st bazaar !! n it was a hit!!
yest i held my 1st bazaar at tanglin mall!! it was so hot!! so tired!! and so very fun!!!only packed one hand carried luggage full of clothes, bags, cds and accessories and i manage to earn quite a bit!! hee....
whereas joalin and cheryl brought a really huge luggage. thought they were really over doing it...but...
when i got there i realise what i had was insufficient. cos there were other regulars who brought super mega huge luggage and heaps and mountains full of clothes to sell!!!!! they even bothered to bring a clothes rack!!! crazy and insane were the words...and i realise that our clothes were pretty pricy cos other stalls were selling clothes at $1 and $2 !!! jeans at like lower than $5!!! fwah....talk abt competition...but i believe that we still manage to sell quite a bit cos my clothes were newer and branded....differentiation i guess.
anyway it was fun cos i got to meet all sorts of pple and train my haggling skills =)the shoppers were pretty civillised too. they bargained but they weren't rude or mean...it was all fun and gd natured . though there were a few who threw my stuff here and there...but i guess that's inevitable...at least they didn't throw it at me...kekeke...oh and i wanna thank joaling for introducing this to me, and teaching me how to do this, it was really really an experience =) and of course adrian and cheryl, upped the entertainment level. most of the time we were busy selling our stuff and didn't have time to eat or talk. oh and of course the guys who made their way down after work to help us pack up and chit chat...THANK YOU!!!!it was definitely a great night, great sales, great company and
yes, i'll be back at tangling mall bazaar (^_^)
sam n his new hairstyle!! curls!!!! i do think i've got nicer hairstyle than him. muahahaha....bleah...
last but not least! cheryl n adrian!! dun they look compatible!! =)
uncle adrian got a slot next to us! fwah!!!! so garang guni....hee...cheryl's so going to kill me
a bit heart ache to sell tis bag at $10. a lot of pple asked for it n i refuse to bring the price down. but at least i sold it to someone worthy.
my 1st bazaar! think this shirt is very very nice. nearly wanted to buy it n wear as pyjamas.kekeke
jy and s.a.m!!!!!! short for sexy auto mobile =) it's sexy alright. love the colour and vintage look to it
meng and wendy! piggin out on udon.
steam boat at jy's place! this was some time back. only manage to load it now. hee...anyway that's weiming on the left and darrel on the right.
the pair of playboy earrings from hk. 50th anniversary. crystal studs make the eyes, but can't see from here
can't seem to blog lately.
incoherent thoughts, boring work life.
i did try. but they end in the trash .
jus had 4 hours of work on a sat morn. 1 more week of answering calls and its back to school.
now i'm thinking about last night, and i'm also thinking about what's going to happen at the bazaar later.
can't seem to focus of late.
is this a sign of aging? or is this just a sign of sheer boredom. so much time that i can keep thinking about many things at one time.
i need a rebound.
sacrifice someone to take me out of my misery.
but, who's willing to be my rebound? will i be able to find one to begin with??
i'm constantly regretting my actions. everytime i think backon what i've done, what i've said.
why do i have so many regrets? shouldn't i just move on? for i cannot undo what i've done.
is this how i'm going to muddle through my life?
